My mom asked me a couple of months ago what my plan was after Baby was born, in terms of caring for him, going back to work, etc., My response: I have no clue! and I don’t even want to think about it or try to figure it out because the thought of it creates too much anxiety. I just have peace and am putting my total trust in God that it will all work out, and am praying a lot. He has a plan. I have no plan. I had no plan or clue how it would work out when I had Kiana either, but it did. With Kiana I had the support and help of a church body and also found wonderful people who were willing to come into my home to assist me while my husband was at work. This time around I don’t have the support of a church, and I don’t think I want to go through the headache of finding reliable people to come into my home, nor do I have the money. Yet, I’m going to need help... I think.
would think that because this is my second I might have this figured
out a little more, but I don’t. I have no clue how I’m going to care
for an infant. I wasn’t able to care for Kiana on my own until she was 7
months, once she was able to crawl which thankfully was at an early age
of 5 months.
also do not believe in putting my baby in full-time child care for
someone else to care for. Even now I only work part-time and have Kiana
in part-time childcare because I think it is important for me to be home
with her. I could not be the mom I want to be in terms of time and
energy if I worked 40 hours a week. But even if I wanted to have my
baby in childcare, I couldn’t because I can not get a baby in and out of
the car until they are able to walk.
It’s in God’s hands. He has a perfect plan. And my mom with be here for at least the first 6 weeks. I am thankful for that.